Lol, I remember this one time I was super high walking with some friends & I wrote “smile. Someone loves you” on a car window & one guy goes “wtf are you doing?” I was like “writing this because what if this person is running late tmo, spills coffee all over themselves, & just has a fucked up morning” then my other friend said “or he’ll come out & say ‘who tf wrote on my car?!’” Idk why I thought of that but yeah. Hahaha.
You can say & ask whatever you want about me.
I don’t care. You wont bring me down, but if you ever say anything negative about my son that’s when shit gets real.
It’s so fucking funny to me when people think they can have a foul opinion about how I’m acting towards my baby daddy without even knowing my side. If you knew my side, you’d understand that the way I’ve acted is perfectly reasonable. Whatever though, talk your shit. I’m just looking out for whats best for my son.
I seriously want to cry forever right now. My dad never gets sick, ever! & now its something serious :( he’s been in the hospital since 1am on the 15th, finally got to home at 2pm on the 17th then they found something in his blood today so he had to go back & now he’s staying there again. I’m scared. I’m trying to be strong but its hard. I feel so helpless :(
My mom is getting less excited & interested as I get more excited. It hurts so much because she’s the only one who’s been my supporter & kept me going this whole way & now she’s not. I feel so alone. I can’t talk to anyone about how excited I am because no one cares so they just make me feel like shit. I get why my mom is getting less excited, I mean I’m her little girl having a baby but she could at least fake it a little longer. I just want to cry my eyes out. I hate this.
I love when my step dad tries to say something about my dad not doing anything for my brother & I when he has no fucking clue that he’s doing a lot. My dad pays my phone bill, my new clothes, even buys fruit & meat so I can cook here at my moms, helping my brother with driving, taking my brother places, also pays stuff I need & checks on us to make sure we’re fine & dont need anything but oh yeah, that’s not doing anything. Ha. My step dad is cool sometimes but when he says things like that, its not okay.
My dear son,
I went from feeling your little movements that felt like butterflies to feeling full body parts against the inside of my uterus & skin. You’re inside me and yet I have this love for you thats unexplainable already. I can’t wait until you arrive! Everyone says I ruined my life and don’t like the fact that I’ll be a young mom, but I don’t care. My age doesn’t determine what a great mom I’ll be, it’s me & I’m going to be a damn great one. Nothing else matters more to me than you & your health & safety. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me. Man, If only you could read all this…
It’s so fucking annoying how my mom & step dad are going on a date to a fancy place knowing there’s no food for me here & they want to bring me back a burger. That’s disgusting. So they get a fancy meal & I get greasy gross food? No thanks, I’d rather die.
When I was conceived & born my parents were separated so I had to deal with the whole every other weekend stuff with my dad. Sometimes, kindof all the time now, I wish they were still together all that time & now. I don’t want step parents. I want my parents. I feel bad when I feel this way cause I know my son will feel the same way & he’ll have to grow up the same way as me kinda. Even if he understands, just like I do, that when two people aren’t happy together & theyre constantly arguing, there really is no point in trying to stay together.
Okay so I feel like I never see my mom & I’ve been having a hard night so I asked if she could sleep in my bed tonight & she said yes but now she’s not. Why? Because my step dad threw a little bitch fit about it cause he wanted her to sleep with him. He’s all getting up, texting her, coming to talk to her. Like fuck man, I’m sorry I need my mom. You get her all hours of the day! When you’re not with us, you’re texting or calling her & when you’re with us, you want all her attention. When the fuck can I have her?!
Out of all the guys I could’ve been with & probably would’ve been with, it had to be him? Like really? I mean I didnt want a baby but if anyone, him? Forreal? What was going through Gods head when he planned this? It makes me lose my shit sometimes. It reeeaally does.
When a babe texts you >
When you realize you have a boyfriend, & a baby on the way & a babe texts you < Fml. I’ve wanted this guy for years. WHERE WERE YOU YEARS AGO.
Today can literally not get any fucking worse, I have the worst cramps & these don’t feel nice. I cant get a break anywhere. I’ve been arguing with everyone & their mother. One argument even got physical, cause the other person I guess forgot I have a fucking child in my stomach. Ugh. Everything is turning into shit. I have no one to talk to so here I am…
If I stay up any longer, I might kill myself. So I’m going to force myself to sleep, or most likely just cry myself to sleep. I’m tired of losing friends, I’ve lost two, one of which I don’t mind losing. She was always kind of a bad friend, but it still hurts. The other was my catfish. That kid was my fucking right hand man & now its like we never even knew eachother. It fucking blows. Nothing but a bottle & my pills can help me feel better right now. If it weren’t for this baby, I swear id be gone. Actually, if it weren’t for this baby, id be taking my anti depressants & not having any problems. Oh well. Sorry ladies & gents for throwing this on you. Love you :* night.
